not havinq a father

not havinq My father was dah hardest thing that happen to me i never really had a father figure in my Lifee untill i Met the most Greatest person in My world the one i know whos always going to be there for me the one i love dearly the one that always haves my back the one that i could call my dad and my father the one i truly love alot and i wont eva be happy with somebody else trying to be like my dad i never had my real father when i was small i always wanted him to be around but i guess he didnt want to man up and be a man and take caree of his child but it didnt matter to me b|c a father is the one who makes u a dad is the one who raised uu and i dont need my father cus i got the greatest person in the world to fit in his place and its my dad well i guess thiiss made me realized that uu dont only need ur real father to always be apart of ur life

heart broken

my heart tares open w.the part that its knowinq im heart and im crying my heart crushed into thousands of pieces in my body floating around my chest . things poking me and im knowinq that its my heart bursting out into lots of piece cus i got heart broken tears dripping down my face onto my shirt face RED thoughts floating into my head . why ? did this Happen ? blaming my self for something i thought ive done but in the end it was all ur fault ! cried for Hours just dwelling on the pass and how much it meant to me holding on to the only thing i have left is our memories and and the thought of how we was together at one point and now we arent and how much it hurts makes me think of why did we get together? if this was going to happen ! as i see blood raising i know its cus how much my heart aches of how i ever i got w. Yuh if i had one wish it would be to fix my heart from ever getting attached you and fixing the pain . regret is a big word and i would never say it but this was meant to be said i regret letting uu control my heart and holding it sometimes i even wish to regret ever having u in my life -________-

ive learn never to fall so easy never let a person get to close to ur heart to never try to hold on to something that will never hold on to uu backk ive learn my lesson and i will never do this again .